Tuesday, March 31, 2009

God is always in control even when we can't understand how he is steering us! Think about it!

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

The Pit of Depression/Negativity is Endless!

Well, people I'm back yet again with another thought. I guess as God deals with me more I have more thoughts, so I guess that means more entries...lol.

This is something that has been on my mind a few days now, and I feel like writing about it now. It's almost a continuation of Got Haters?(my last entry that was typed and not sent from my phone) Basically where I left off in that one was talking about negativity. I truly believe that depression and negativity are an endless pit! Well, why do you say that Mike?... Think about it: The more you worry about a matter, it seems like the worse it gets. The more you hate a job, the worse it gets. The more you say you're not a morning person, the harder it is to get up in the morning. And as I said in my entry titled Resolution, I resolve that when I begin to worry about a situation I will catch myself and say Lord, let your will be done. I resolve that I'm going to catch myself when I first stumble upon that pit of negativity, so that my climb out is not as steep! Woah... Think about that one for a minute. The more you fall into nagging co-workers, the more you fall into sorry baby's daddys, the more you fall into financial lack, the more you fall into gossip, the more you fall into speaking negatively, the more you turn away from God... The harder it is to climb out, the harder it is to be removed from the situation, the harder it is to get closer to God!

I will share a story with you(whomever the reader maybe) that I've shared with none but some of my clients and I think Felicia can remember the situation but didn't know how severe it was.
Last year in June, I wrote my first blog after my brother, Darrell had suggested it to me. My first blog was originally on myspace and it's entitled Life is Like Nike, Just Do It! (Go check it out on here if you haven't) Basically in that blog I wrote about being positive and not making excuses for yourself. There were a few people who read that and said that it was good, or that it blessed them. Now, all the way back last year the Devil probably saw what my writing would be today and begin to fight. Later on June 28th, my Father passed away. I then wrote a blog called My Profile Song, and at the time my profile song was I'll Be Praying for You by the Seven Sons of Soul. In the first month of me writing, I had written about 3-5 blogs. I was spreading all this good cheer and info and I was in a depressive state. I told Felicia, "I don't know what's wrong with me but it just feels like I don't want to do anything." The only time I felt like I was living is when I was at work with my clients, or when I made it to church. All the time I was at home, I felt empty. I had no energy, I didn't want to work out. I started to gain weight. I was sinking deeper and deeper into the Endless Pit of Depression & Negativity! I can remember Felicia asking me, "Do you think you're grieving internally, and it's just your body's way of telling you?" All I can remember thinking is that being from a huge family I had seen so much loss that I didn't think that was it. But now I know what it was, it was the Devil trying to hold me back from getting to that one Sunday morning in October when Felicia and I looked at each other and said today is the day we join our church! The Devil was trying to hold me back from all of the many blessings he's been restoring upon me! The Devil was trying to hold me back from writing these blogs to inspire, uplift and bless You! The Devil was trying to hold me back from the work that I'm beginning to do in my church! The Devil was trying to hold me back from the many great things God has planned for me that I don't even know of right now! And let me tell you the reason why I know it's an endless pit; I fell so far in it that I'm still shaking off the dirt from it even today!
So I write this blog simply to give everyone who reads it encouragement, to say Get Up Now from your Negativity before it turns into Depression. As my pastor, Bishop Jim Lowe sometimes say, I don't want to go through Hell to experience blessings while in this life. So I write this simply to warn you that if there is anything ailing you right now just simply give it to God, and be done with it. A scripture my pastor brought out: I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world. (John 16:33) No, it's not always going to be easy. But if you worry or complain, it's not going to make the problem any better until God wants to fix it anyway. So line yourself up to make Him want to move a little quicker! As always may God Bless anyone who has, is and will read this. Continue to pray for me that God will keep dealing with me in a mighty way! I love you all!


I resolve that every morning I wake up, Satan and his angels are in trouble! I resolve that this is the day that the Lord has made, and I will rejoice and be glad in it! I resolve that it is by the Lord's hand that I will be lead through this day! I resolve that I will do my best to guard my thoughts, words, actions, character and destiny! I resolve that if any opportunity presents itself for me to witness, or invite someone to church, or share a testimony, Lord I will do it! Now, under the eyes of God, I resolve that I will be blessed when I come and blessed when I go! I resolve that I will lift up those around me! I vow that I will do my best on my jobs to show myself worthy of promotion, to show myself worthy of a better job! I vow that on this day, I will inflict heavy and severe casualties to the enemy of my Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ!

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Got Haters?...

Well, it's that time again! This entry was inspired by a sermon title that my Sister was telling me my cousin did last time he came home. The title was, "Go Ahead and Hate On Me, because Your Hating Is Going to Elevate Me." The way we got on the topic was the fact that I was telling her about a situation that I was facing. However, in the midst of the situation that seemed to be blatant hating or jealously, I never once got down about the situation or tried to return the hating. I just would say everytime God Bless them.

Then it came to me as clear as day... Why would you even entertain a Hater? If you think about it, as long as you entertain a hater or someone or something that is put in your life to be a hender and not a helper, you are giving that someone or something the power over you and your situation. So, choose to respond the way God told me to respond, and simply pray even harder for those roadblocks, be it people, places or things(situations). When you do that and forget about, you're removing yourself from the situation and simply saying Lord move in my behalf. Yes, believe me I know that sometimes it is hard to do that. I have situations and circumstances in my life right now that could get me down, but I choose to say God because I am your Covenant Child, because I am obeying the Leader you have placed in my life, God because I love you not just for what you do but for who You are, God because I know Faith can move mountains.... I trust and know that You are going to work this thing out!

Now, at the same time (please read this paragraph carefully) if you are going to trust God about a situation, person, or anything that henders your growth and advancement it is but a slap in the face of God if you ask him to fix a situation and you go on worrying about it. My pastor, Bishop Jim Lowe, was talking about negative spirits Sunday in his sermon and how they are not of God. One thing that stood out to me was when he said, not in these exact words, but "Negativity" indicates to God that you don't have the faith that he can work out a situation. Wow... think about that for a moment. God, Please take care of this sorry dude in my life, God, Please help me to be able to deal with my co-worker, God, Please help me to pass this class, God, Please help me to get a raise or a better job! Then we turn around and fuss with the sorry dude, then we turn around get an attitude before the co-worker even opens their mouth, then we turn around and not study to get the grade, then we turn around and half do the job that we have! Hello, you can get a raise if you're not putting in the work! Hello, God is not going to bless us with the new job if we're not putting our hearts into the one we have now. Yes, believe me I'm talking to myself too!

I said all that to say this paragraph here...
I told you a few entries back that I know that God tests you at every level, and you who know me know that God has been blessing me left and right, in my going in and my coming out! However, you see the blessings, but you don't see the trials I'm going through daily. Some days, I just have to catch my breath and put a smile on my face, because I wonder how I'm going to make it through. Then as Lecrae(an amazing gospel rap artist, go buy his newest album Rebel) says, I sober up and realize how God sent his only begotten Son to die on the cross for my sins. Wow, in other words if He does not another thing for me, He's already done enough. Likewise, I wake up every morning and conclude that no matter what comes my way, I'm going to trust and depend on God every step of the way. For, If the Lord delights in a man's way, he makes his steps firm; though he stumble, he will not fall, for the Lord upholds him with his hands (Psalms 37:23-24 I can testify to the fact that life is so much better when you have that outlook.

So, for the single Mother, for the struggling college student, for the single Father, for the Man/Woman that just wants a relationship with God, for the jobless, for the week-minded, for the person who don't know where to turn, for the person who does not know where the next meal, check, opportunity is coming from, for the single Woman, for the single Man, for the young person trying to sustain, for the sick, for the HATERS, for the HATED... just give it to God, and I mean really give it to God and let go. So many times we try to help others with quotes, prayer, advice, but how many times do we apply it to ourselves... something to make you go hmmmm. Well, I am going to take all my advice.

And this is why, I know I am going to be alright. Now, I have to calm down before I start shouting...lol As always, I pray that everyone who has read, is reading, or will read this will bless beyond measure. God Bless You, and if this does something for you, don't keep it to yourself. Tell somebody else about it, or now I've set it up where you can email someone. Be blessed!

Monday, March 16, 2009


Lord for the work and the divine appointment that you called me to do even before I was conceived, I simply say Yes! For I know that this is Truly where my blessings rest when I begin to walk in the way you would have me to go. As my pastor, Bishop Jim Lowe, said today I don't want to have to go through Hell to know that God is with me. So, I choose to walk in the direction you lead me now Lord, so I can learn not from my mistakes but from my journey. So again Lord, I say Yes! As always, if you are reading this I pray God's blessings on your life! Show me your Will God, for I know I was created to excel and not fail, that is my divine potential!

Thursday, March 12, 2009


If you know the word of prayer, pray for me! Simply pray that God would give me more of Him, and that he will order my steps.


God grant me the favor you gave Joseph! Read Genesis Chapters 37-45! It's amazing the provisions God makes for you when you have his favor, even in a strange and foreign land. As always, may God Bless all who reads this!

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Are You Serious!...

I was watching the Ellen Degeneres Show yesterday, and she questioned Diddy about why he provided Chris Brown and Rihanna his facilities to talk it over and get back together. Diddy's exact words were:"I know both of them, and it's my house and I'm allowed to give my house to whomever I want to give my house too. That's #1. #2 is that I'm the type of person that I don't cast a stone or don't cast judgement on anybody. And so if a friend asks me for a favor, I'm gonna be there for them as long as I know that the energy of that favor is positive for two people to sit down and talk about a situation that they are in." He said that he was basically there a support for friends. Ellen said, "I understand where you're coming from, but I just don't want any girl out there to think it is ok to go back to a guy that hit her." So I was driving home from my morning shift at work a few minutes ago, and Steve Harvey had a representative from Essence on his show talking about the stand that they are taking against this situation and domestic violence in general. Steve Harvey basically went on to say everything that I feel, so I'm inspired to write an entry to my blog on this topic.

Are You Serious!... I don't pass judgement on people either, and by that I'm not saying that Chris Brown, who was one of my favorite artist and is still a very talented individual, is going to Hell for what he did because God forgives us continiously when we seek him. However, I am saying that there is no excuse for a Man, if that is what you call yourself, to hit a female... PERIOD! I understand where Diddy was coming from also, but at the same time if you call yourself a man you should walk away. She burnt me... WALK AWAY! She slapped me first... WALK AWAY! She lied on me... WALK AWAY! She spit in my face... WALK AWAY! She did whatever... WALK AWAY! Now I know that sometimes it seem as though females know all of the right buttons to push to take you to "that point", but there is still no excuse.

I also realize that a lot of times it is a stem of the way you were raise, and as for me. I never once, in the 11 years that I lived before my Mother died, saw my Father even raise his hand to strike her. Yes, I've heard them argue. Yes, I've saw him angry at her. Still never saw him hit her in any way. Now, I'm the youngest of 10 so I can't speak for all of my siblings I'm just speaking for myself. If you did come up in a household like that, then you gotta go to the only one who can change your outlook... GOD and ask him to show you how to be a man.

As for all of my beautiful Black, White, Brown, Red, Yellow, etc. women out there just know that if it happened once, you better believe it can happen again. Don't feel like you can't escape. Don't feel like you need a man to make it, because if he hits you he wasn't a Man in the first place. (notice i didn't capatalize the first man) Don't feel embarassed and like no one cares. Don't feel like you he loves you anyway and it'll never happend again. STOP BEING STUPID AND GET OUT OF THE SITUATION BEFORE IT ENDS IN DEATH! I'm quite sure every woman out there has some Man in their life that would help them out if they knew what was really going on. Don't take matters into your own hands. Get help if it ever happens.. the first time!

So for one last time, I'll say Are You Serious!...
As always be blessed!

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Amazing to Me!

It is truly amazing to me how we can wake up every morning, have our life, health and strength, have clothes to put on our backs, some food to eat, have a job to go to in this down economy(even if it is not the job we want), go to school, do everything we take for granted and not thank God once during our "what we call busy day". Well, as I said before I will continue to spread the Joy of Jesus through my testimony and my blessings! God has and is too good to me for me not to spread it. Bless the Lord O My Soul and all that is within Me! My Pastor talked about the importance today of the testimony. God is really doing wonderful things in Felicia and My Life! Our house is about to be built, we're getting married in July and one of our good friends is paying for our honeymoon! (Thank You Jesus) The greatest of our worries are becoming the least of our worries. You already know about my new car God blessed me with. My career is about to go places I never imagined, as well as Felicia's! Felicia is soon to get her new car. Yes, some may say "How are yall doing all of this in a down economy? Are you all not scared of all of these big moves?" Well, if you knew like I knew that all these things are not being done by our hands, but by the work of the Lord in our lives you wouldn't even question it as we are not questioning God. In fact we know we are Covenant Children of God, so this and many other blessings are just a little of what we can expect as long as we honor the Covenant of God in our lives! Once again, as I will remain to do in all of my posts I pray God's blessings on anyone who reads this! For I know I was created to excel and not fail, that is my divine potential!